you can stand up there

did you ever think you would come this far?
from the chemicals and gases,
thrown out to make decisions,
hesitant,
with shaky hands,
and a pounding heart,
cars roll on,
not sure why,
people walk fast,
not sure where,



for now,
I'll try to forget the bad things,

it takes some time,
you have to climb,
you have to labour,
you have to wrestle,
with the mystery,
before you can stand up there,
but after some time,
you will stand up there,
with the gods,
and know that you matter.

hiccup

what you build up,
nature tears down,
metal city,
wooden town,

a good woman dies,
a heart gets torn,
churning black storm,

standing nowhere,
leaning backward,
looking forward,

it's bad when we heal up,
happiness is just a hiccup,

is there a purpose?
is there a reason?
the spinning wheel,
a changing season,

I've lost my way,
you slam the door,
I stare at the floor,

a good man dies,
blood on a thorn,
a baby is born,

it's good to get broken into parts,
that's where the realness starts.