you can stand up there

did you ever think you would come this far?
from the chemicals and gases,
thrown out to make decisions,
hesitant,
with shaky hands,
and a pounding heart,
cars roll on,
not sure why,
people walk fast,
not sure where,



for now,
I'll try to forget the bad things,

it takes some time,
you have to climb,
you have to labour,
you have to wrestle,
with the mystery,
before you can stand up there,
but after some time,
you will stand up there,
with the gods,
and know that you matter.